BITTERSWEET

Bittersweet explores the conflicting emotions of motherhood – the love, the tenderness, the fears,  the loss of self, the loneliness. I collaborate with my young son to escape the chaos of our daily lives by creating a warm and colorful world of our own. I use light and shadow as a metaphor: our lives appearbright and colorful on the surface while piles of laundry, dirty dishes and some of the darker feelings are obscured by the shadows. 

I spent the early years wanting more time to myself, not having enough distance from the events of our daily lives to appreciate them. As my son gets older, the anxiety about him growing up and wanting more distance creeps in. 

I make these photographs  to remember my child’s chubby thighs and golden hair, and what it’s like to touch his skin and feel the weight  of his body while I can still carry him. I photograph our love and my nightmares, with a superstitious hope that my fears won’t materialize if I spell them out in my photographs.